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Merry Christmas to All

I just realized that I have abandoned this blog, which is a thoughtless thing to do, especially coming from someone who has severe abandonment issues ­čśŤ I hope everyone’s holiday season has been well. I find holidays difficult- family get-together … Continue reading

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Hello, World

I’m slowly starting to return to┬áthis world. I’m 10lbs. lighter and I will have missed two weeks of work when I officially go back at the end of the week, but at least I didn’t end up in the hospital … Continue reading

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Kaboom

I have crashed into that dark world of depression, once again. Either that or it’s a different, dark DID state; I can’t be bothered with particulars. My brain is no longer working. I’m semi-mute, crying constantly, terrified, sleeping excessively, plagued … Continue reading

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An Episode

This is what an episode of DID looks and feels like on me. I know now, after years of therapy, how to recognize and identify what’s happening. ┬áBefore I would simply think I had gone mad, sometimes resulting in time … Continue reading

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Queen of Side Effects

Zoloft. Is. Slowly. Killing. Me. I can’t believe how hard this drug is hitting me, especially since I’m on the lowest possible dose, and I’m no stranger to psych meds. (I took 60mg of Celexa for a year, which is … Continue reading

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Bye Bye Benzos

Twenty days since my last post and I’m off benzos! I had my (hopefully!) last clonazepam a week ago, and before that, I went several days without taking one. My symptoms didn’t last as long as I thought they would, … Continue reading

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Benzo Withdrawal

I haven’t written much, mainly because my life recently consists of nothing more than benzo withdrawal. Now I understand the dreaded withdrawal they speak of; how many professionals say that benzos are more difficult to quit than heroin. I’ve had … Continue reading

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